Name:Jason Location: Miami, Florida, United States Gender:Male
Interests:I love writing. I love music and movies. I love wrestling and thinking about God and life. I love hockey. And I love being around people (especially you). Expertise:Your mom!
Well, as you all may have noticed, my last entry had a goal of me trying to update this things more often. Clearly that hasn't happened. However, I am blogging at a new place now. I'm moving my previous entries over there, and probably will then abandon this blog... but you all should bookmark the new one and check it out regularly.
I can now be found at: http://www.jason-mills.blogspot.com
I've been away from here for a little bit, and to be honest, I missed it. At times, Xanga seems like an abandoned place, and I sometimes wonder if it is still worth writing here. But I do it as much for myself as others I think. I like reaching into the depths of my heart and seeing what I can find. It's like a treasure hunt, and I usually end up learning something about myself and as a result, something about the world I live in. It helps to sit down and write out the thoughts bouncing around in my head. It can bring clarity.
But I do know that others read this too. Both my mom and Nick have told me that they miss my posts and that they want me to start updating again. I think I'll probably start to post some of these under "Notes" on Facebook too, but for the particularly controversial topics, I might leave them as Xanga exclusives.
It was never my intention to stop writing, but as I got busier and busier throughout the semester, it kind of just happened. I feel like I have more than ever to share though now. Between my contemporary moral issues class, the U.S. Presidential debates, and life in general, I've been thinking about a lot of different things. Things like abortion, cloning, immigration, capital punishment, gay marriage, love and lonliness, hope and hopelessness. I'm going to try and be better at sharing them. And I'm going to try and be as honest as is appropriate.
The truth is, there are probably things that many people will find confusing, ridiculous, perhaps infuriating. That's fine. I never will believe that I have all the answers, or even many of them. But I think it is healthy and good to consider things . . . even if these opinions are very different from one's own. I only hope that you won't think differently of me as a result -- I am the same person you have always known.
In short, I'm going to do my best to use Xanga as an outlet source that it has been for me in the past. I hope you will enjoy it.
Everybody’s breaking Everybody’s aching Anyone who’s smiling Must be surely faking. A world full of darkness Where everyone is heartless A desperate need for justice I know I can’t accomplish.
Everybody’s hiding Everybody’s lying The world now is fading What’s the point in trying? A world full of hatred Where nothing is found sacred A desperate need for faith in peace I wish that I could still believe.
Hope is swallowed by the dark As this world gets torn apart But if tonight you are strong Please keep the light on.
Everybody’s damned To weak to even stand We’re falling hard from grace With no place to land. A world going straight to hell Our souls we so quickly sell A desperate cry inside my heart I just want to make it well.
Hope is swallowed by the dark As this world gets torn apart But if tonight you are strong Please keep the light on.
We watch our leaders speak eloquent lies And beat down those we marginalize Wars are fought that we don’t want We stand still while our world dies. I know the problem starts inside Building walls looking to hide But can I even change a thing? It doesn’t matter how hard I try. I’m starting to doubt we can rise Beyond our carnal desire to survive Capitalists, terrorists, we’re all terrified Looking for meanings to our lives So dear love, if hope’s still in sight Please lend me your strength tonight Hold me in my darkest hour And when you go, leave on the light.
Everbody’s praying Everybody’s waiting As angels look around Is there anyone worth saving? A world full of hurt and shame Where we all point and blame A desperate need for love and grace I need to feel the healing reign.
Hope is swallowed by the dark As this world gets blown apart But if tonight you are strong Please keep the light on.
Wow, it's been a while since I last wrote on here. This entry isn't going to be too deep either. But you may very well learn a few things, like who to pick in your hockey pools.
That's right, it's that time of year where I make my yearly picks of who will be playing come April and who will not. Last year I picked 13 of the 16 teams correctly. Let's see how I do this year.
Here are my fearless predictions:
WEST:
1. Detroit Red Wings 2. San Jose Sharks 3. Colorado Avalanche 4. Anaheim Ducks 5. Vancouver Canucks 6. Minnesota Wild 7. Dallas Stars 8. Edmonton Oilers
9. Los Angeles Kings 10. Chicago Blackhawks 11. Calgary Flames 12. St. Louis Blues 13. Nashville Predators 14. Columbus Blue Jackets 15. Phoenix Coyotes
EAST:
1. Philadelphia Flyers 2. Ottawa Senators 3. Florida Panthers 4. New York Rangers 5. Pittsburgh Penguins 6. Carolina Hurricanes 7. Montreal Canadiens 8. Buffalo Sabres
9. Toronto Maple Leafs 10. Tampa Bay Lightning 11. New Jersey Devils 12. Boston Bruins 13. Atlanta Thrashers 14. Washington Capitals 15. New York Islanders
WESTERN CONFERENCE CHAMPIONS: Detroit Red Wings EASTERN CONFERENCE CHAMPIONS: Ottawa Senators STANLEY CUP CHAMPIONS: Detroit Red Wings
JACK ADAMS TROPHY (Coach of the Year): JACQUES MARTIN HART TROPHY (Most Valuable Player): SIDNEY CROSBY CALDER TROPHY (Rookie of the Year): JONATHAN TOEWS SELKE TROPHY (Top Defensive Forward): MIKE FISHER NORRIS TROPHY (Top Defenceman): NICKLAS LIDSTROM VEZINA TROPHY (Top Goaltender): ROBERTO LUONGO ART ROSS TROPHY (Scoring Title): SIDNEY CROSBY ROCKET RICHARD TROPHY (Most Goals): DANY HEATLEY
MOST IMPROVED TEAM: Philadelphia Flyers TEAMS POISED TO SURPRISE: Edmonton Oilers, Los Angeles Kings, Florida Panthers, Montreal Canadiens
TEAM WITH THE WORST OFF-SEASON: Nashville Predators and NY Islanders (Tie) TEAMS POISED FOR A MELTDOWN: Calgary Flames, Nashville Predators, Tampa Bay Lightning, Atlanta Thrashers, NY Islanders
Oh Xanga. You allow me to bare my soul in a way Facebook never quite has been able. You may no longer hold the captive audience you once had, but you still have a very important purpose and place.
I recently discovered a new T.V. show that I absolutely LOVE. It's called "Wonderfalls". Now, like most shows I like, it quickly got cancelled by Fox (what is it with that station?), and is no longer on the air. However, it is definately worth checking out on DVD, especially if you like shows like Dead Like Me, The Office, or Arrested Development.
I also am very excited about the move Kevin Lowe made this week signing Dustin Penner. I did a fairly lengthy analysis on Oilfans.com (which is an excellent site by the way), but in short, I love Penner and feel he is poised to become the next great power forward in the league. It is certainly a risk Lowe is taking, but I fully expect it to pay off, and I wouldn't be surprised if by half-way through the contract, the $4M/yr. looks like a bargain. Plus, it has put the Ducks in a miserable position; and I love that. Here's hoping that Brian Burke doesn't match, and that next time I write, Penner is officially an Oiler.
It's hard to believe that in just over two weeks I'll be flying back to Miami. The summer has gone by remarkably quickly. There are people that I have wanted to see that I haven't. There are people I wanted to see more of that I didn't. And there are things I wanted to try and places I wanted to travel and all these summer-like things that just didn't happen. It's too bad, but at least it was because I was busy. Still, as excited as I am to go back (and I am very excited to go back), I'm going to miss this place an awful lot. I'll be back at Christmas, but after that, who knows? I am considering trying for some internships down in the States, maybe with Disney, maybe with Crispin Porter, maybe somwhere else. I don't know what will happen, I really don't.
This is assuming of course that I end up down there. I've been fighting miserably with the banks in the United States trying to get my loans finalized. It's still not complete, and it has me more than a little frustrated and anxious.
Actually, this whole summer has been a little frustrating for me in many ways. I've been struggling pretty hard with some things. I guess in many ways, I'm just really disappointed with life right now. I've lost faith in so many things, including, at times, even God. I cannot see anything good in the world anymore; there is only violence, greed, and hate. And even though there are people who want to stand against such things, I struggle to believe it is possible. There are other things too, more personal things, scars that just don't seem to heal. Scars that to many people are nothing at all, very trivial. Because of that I hesitate to even mention them. Still, they certainly affect me and they have caused some lonely nights.
Anyways, that's enough writing for tonight. It was a little vague, I know, but it's all I can manage right now. May you feel God's goodness today. May we all.
